I was so guilty that I could not follow the instruction to have a weekly meditation as other had. While looking back to my weekly schedule, I found myself busy at client meeting for a whole week, paid a lot of attention for my kid performance, run to join a parent meeting at last minutes. It seems like I always breath out and had no time to breath in. I have no energy to drive myself at all.
When talking about breath in and breath out, I find it very important to balance this 2 realms in a rhythmic way. For me, having a good time talking to the one you love and listening to whatever other said without judgment are the breath in activity in my life. It is a fresh air that give me a space to suspend my thought and my reaction. I can say that, the more fresh air I breath in, the more fresh eyes I breath out.
Usually, mediation is the first and the last activity that I do it in my daily life. It is the most and auspicious time for me to skip myself from the busy day, stay with my own self and refresh my mind with a mindfulness and gratitude in life. Even, I am a Buddhism, but my practical way of meditation is Sahaja Yoga meditation which I practice for nearly 20 years. I find it useful to spend half an hour a day when I wake up and before going to bed to reflect my day.
It is a time to connect to the higher self and the collective wisdom in order to become a witness of the situation I faced in daily life. Sometime, it is very hard to open my head and surrender my heart to invite a good answer in life. The only quality that I have during my challenging time is faith. I have strong trust and faith that whatever life bring to me is the lesson that I have to learn. It is only me who can change the world and see it as it emerges.
This is only the experience that I can share with you this week.
Chinrinee
Monday, 8 March 2010
Sunday, 7 March 2010
My second coaching call with Jo Ann
After missing to have a coaching call last Wednesday due to my misunderstanding about the time, we rescheduled a new coaching call today. I found that it drew a lot of attention to concentrate in both time different and English conversation that I communicated over the coaching call or in my correspondence with her. Jo Ann, please accept my apologise. I do promise to improve my English communication skills and practice it more and more.
Today, we have a good time sharing about my 4 player model. She starts the session with the type of my conversation process. Her question of "Are you a mover?" brought me to discover my leadership style and the way I could suspend a point of view to blaim my staff. It was amazing time for me to hold the space to listen to staff story without judgement. I was very lucky to read Week 4 articles and gained a reflection experience as a coach from the coaching session with MaryKate. The two situations came at the right time I have difficulty with my staff.
I found myself as a witness to listen to my staff story when I took my self-identification away and have deep listening with tears in my eyes, it was easy to listen to any criticize and comments with new fresh eyes. It seems like my download and mover mode was cleaned up and I could grasp the sense of collective wisdom that flow into the coffee shop corner that we spend two and a half hours there. We came back to office with laugh and relief, even we still know that nothing has been changed at this moment but we had a strong and deep connection that bound our life together.
It seems like a seed of bystander and follower slowly grew up in my heart. Being a mover and opposer for a nearly a half of century, it is now a time for me to learn and start the new journey as a bystander and follower which I ignored for a whole life.
At the end of this reflection, I am curious about the meeting place that Jo Ann and me meet every week, why both of us become a coach an coachee? Is it a time different or a challenging of English communication that brought us here?
Chinrinee
Today, we have a good time sharing about my 4 player model. She starts the session with the type of my conversation process. Her question of "Are you a mover?" brought me to discover my leadership style and the way I could suspend a point of view to blaim my staff. It was amazing time for me to hold the space to listen to staff story without judgement. I was very lucky to read Week 4 articles and gained a reflection experience as a coach from the coaching session with MaryKate. The two situations came at the right time I have difficulty with my staff.
I found myself as a witness to listen to my staff story when I took my self-identification away and have deep listening with tears in my eyes, it was easy to listen to any criticize and comments with new fresh eyes. It seems like my download and mover mode was cleaned up and I could grasp the sense of collective wisdom that flow into the coffee shop corner that we spend two and a half hours there. We came back to office with laugh and relief, even we still know that nothing has been changed at this moment but we had a strong and deep connection that bound our life together.
It seems like a seed of bystander and follower slowly grew up in my heart. Being a mover and opposer for a nearly a half of century, it is now a time for me to learn and start the new journey as a bystander and follower which I ignored for a whole life.
At the end of this reflection, I am curious about the meeting place that Jo Ann and me meet every week, why both of us become a coach an coachee? Is it a time different or a challenging of English communication that brought us here?
Chinrinee
My first coaching call with Jo Ann
I was very exciting to have a first coaching call with Jo Ann as we had some misunderstanding about the time different and this coaching session was the first skype experience call for her.
We started our session with the history of my learning experience, I found that her questions has brought me back to the first day of my Waldorf teacher training 9 years ago. The picture of a working mom who never had time for her kids, over confidence and perfectionist. She loved to manage others but know nothing about her own life. The core content of all courses brought me to a new destiny of how I saw the world. It was the same world that I took for grant for 46 years. The only question that I had after the end of each class was "What was the foot print that I would like to leave to this world?"
I shared with Jo Ann that the new destiny as a life long learner taught me to face with unstable in life. In the past, I felt that became a learner hurted me a lot as it required a strong commitment to change my own self. At this moment, I could say that I was comfortable to learn by mistake and welcome any challenging in life.
It seems to me that our first coaching call dig me down to realize the source that I came from. I felt a warm and welcome space to share my past experiences with Jo Ann. She helped me a lot to reflect the way I learned and the way I saw the world. Thank you Jo Ann!
Chinrinee
We started our session with the history of my learning experience, I found that her questions has brought me back to the first day of my Waldorf teacher training 9 years ago. The picture of a working mom who never had time for her kids, over confidence and perfectionist. She loved to manage others but know nothing about her own life. The core content of all courses brought me to a new destiny of how I saw the world. It was the same world that I took for grant for 46 years. The only question that I had after the end of each class was "What was the foot print that I would like to leave to this world?"
I shared with Jo Ann that the new destiny as a life long learner taught me to face with unstable in life. In the past, I felt that became a learner hurted me a lot as it required a strong commitment to change my own self. At this moment, I could say that I was comfortable to learn by mistake and welcome any challenging in life.
It seems to me that our first coaching call dig me down to realize the source that I came from. I felt a warm and welcome space to share my past experiences with Jo Ann. She helped me a lot to reflect the way I learned and the way I saw the world. Thank you Jo Ann!
Chinrinee
Saturday, 6 March 2010
Coachging call - Week 2
This week, I can feel the shift and happiness in MaryKate's learning experiences. We talk a lot about 4 player model which she certainly, as an active mover and some time opposite, can shift the way she see the world in to the bystand and follower. She shares her insight about her own life and I am very touch with her view in seeing people as the way they are. For me, the picture of tiny child disappeared, it is a new and mature lady who share her "container" with a coach like me. It is a great pleasure in my life to listen to the story of someone who discovers her own strength and her story encourages me to reflect my own destiny in dialogue process too.
We spend a good and nice time to talk and share our own life after the coaching call. She come up with the way she see the world and I come up with the way I see my thyself and connect to my own "container" after this coaching call with her. Thank you a lot, MaryKate to give me a chance to see my own self.
Chinrinee
We spend a good and nice time to talk and share our own life after the coaching call. She come up with the way she see the world and I come up with the way I see my thyself and connect to my own "container" after this coaching call with her. Thank you a lot, MaryKate to give me a chance to see my own self.
Chinrinee
Saturday, 27 February 2010
My coaching call - week 1
I have a chance to coach MaryKate on the first week. We spend our first coaching call with the question of "What is she learning from the class?" I can feel the strong expression of her feeling, the moment of frastration, the unknown solution and a new way of learning when we flow to the coaching moment. It seems like I see one sweet and tiny child losing her way but having a strong courage to find the way back home. For me, she is very active, energetic and have a lot of vitality.
Giving the fact that she would like to know and have an answer of what she is doing but she can suspend her own self-identification to experience the flow of the unknown in coaching session. At the end of the session, she come up with the release of her own solution to find the new way of learning, even it is still frastrating but she has a clear picture of what she is going to do. As a coach, I can feel the sense of joyfulness and relaxation spread in the air after then. It is the filed of harmony and love in my own life.
Chinrinee
Giving the fact that she would like to know and have an answer of what she is doing but she can suspend her own self-identification to experience the flow of the unknown in coaching session. At the end of the session, she come up with the release of her own solution to find the new way of learning, even it is still frastrating but she has a clear picture of what she is going to do. As a coach, I can feel the sense of joyfulness and relaxation spread in the air after then. It is the filed of harmony and love in my own life.
Chinrinee
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