My 5th Coaching Call with Jo Ann

The coaching call this week was the reflection of what I learned in my "Speech and Drama" workshop, an in-depth phenomenal of how speech could transform our life. It was a profound relationship of human life and the spiritual meaning behind vowel and consonant that formed and explored itself through dialogue.

A busy week passed with the new consciousness in life, the unexpected week that seems difficulty to handle was transformed into a new quality. The struggling issues stayed alive but it was not the matter anymore. I felt like it was a gift that life gave me a pause time to take a rest before moving forward.

For me, the integration of inner dialogue and drama shaped a new way of looking at the world. The surrender of self to something higher than you and become one with it was a wonderful quality of human life. The theory of generative dialogue become alive during the play on stage and still shaded its light into my life until today.

Chinrinee

My 5th Coaching Call with Mary Kate

We spent time this week sharing our thought about "Energy". The question of "Where was the source of energy come from?" was the main question that brought Mary Kate and I deep down to the Ocean of unknown knowledge.

Giving the fact that life brought a lot of learning process and challenging to overcome, I just realized that the flow of energy during our coaching call nourished my soul with a thought for life. I ever thought that "energy" was a powerful wording when we heard it but this time I just realized the real meaning of its power which enrich and strengthen our inner quality to see the situation in our life with fresh eyes.

I could feel the wisdom beyond the wording of "energy" where the unknown source filled both of us with love and care. It was so gentle and warmth to hear her sentence. "I could saw the ocean that allowed me to go out and come back when I needed it. I was claimed and energized." It was so amazing that I could sense and feel the same place as her. It seems like the time and space disappeared, both of us were in one place.

It was a great experience to have a feeling of “Sense of Wonder” during coaching call and became a witness of what life brought to me.

Chinrinee

My 4th coaching call with Mary Kate

The power of being with someone gave me a huge energy to welcome the day. It was a challenging week for me as I had run and facilitated a training sessionn for my client started from 6.30 a.m. - 11.p.m. for 4 days. I was fully engaged with the demanding of client's need during and after the session.

This week was a busy week for Mary Kate as she had to run a training session for her client too. Our conversation deep down into the moment of "present" that she experienced during the class. She shared her nice view of training meaned to her as an opportunity to learn new thing and helped people to examine themselve through questions she raised. The essential of question brought her a moment of being with her client, became part of the groups and felt alive and productive.

She could not name the moment of "engaging with people for a whole body and heart when we were doing something with them." She could felt a huge space and energy connection which was beyond word!

I could feel the moment of truth and present once we finished our conversation. The time and place that we were talking disappeared. She finished our coaching call with the sentence of "It was an incredible that time and place could not separate people, we were still connect in the same present being." You were right, Mary Kate. Your wisdom brought me a perspective of seeing the world with new eyes and ideas. I would like to express my sincere gratitude toward any wisdom behind this wonderful conversation that we shared.

Chinrinee

My 3rd coaching call with MaryKate

I feeled very touched with MaryKate story tonight. Even she was very tied with her day but she expressed her strong commitment to fix with our reschedule coaching call. We agreed to start our coaching session on skype chatting room instead of verbal conversation. This new experience drew a lot of awareness and concentration as a coach like me.

Our coaching journey started with "How about your day today?" rather than "How about your supsension experience that you have this week?" I stopped myself to ask the second question which was prepared in advance after reading her chatting response. It was about 10.30 p.m. in USA due to a day light saving time and it was just only 9.30 a.m. in Bangkok. The different time brought a different mode of emotional and feeling that I never noticed before.

The reflection of day and night gave me a broaden view of MaryKate story. It seems like a coach like me who was ahead of time could see the morning and life before my coachee who was going to sleep with her new challenging in life.

A flow of our conversation was going on very well until I asked the following question.

[9:49:10] Chinrinee Weerawutiwong: What is the release action that can help you overcome this overwhelming?

[9:49:44] Marykate: what do you mean by release action? it sounds good.

As a coach, I had to suspend my answer to her question of "release action", I found that this wording poped up in my head when I listened to her story, a picture of her physical injury and overwhelming emotions in both business and family life.

It seems like a 34 seconds' silent period from (9:40:10 - 9:49:44) was so long but the last sentence brought a lot of release in my heart. For me, "it sounds good" was another realm of feeling that shift from overwhelming to another stage of consciousness. I could feel the moment of being one with her, even we had a coaching call from another part of the world. My release came from my faith and trust that she has connected to her own source and was able to find her own way to reach that stage.

We ended up our coaching call with the connection meaning of "release and suspend". I hope that her answer of "releasing was letting go, relaxing, allowing and breathing" gave her a big picture of its meaning. Good night, MaryKate and enjoy your new day with my favorite poem.

Morning has come
Night is away
Night meets the day
Welcome the day.

Chinrinee

The 3rd coaching call with Jo Ann

I just finish a good time sharing my practice of suspension with Jo Ann. A feeling of relief and having someone really listen to me fill my heart with love and care. Her deep listening helps me reflecting my own self of who I am and what is my work for as a leader. Having a time to reflect my story in a blog and during a coaching call, it seems like standing in front of big mirror and I can see myself from all directions. It is a crytal clear to see myself as the way I am.

Jo Ann ends up our coaching call with the question of my final project course which I never think before. I tell her that I may consider to have a final project on the topic of "Dying your old self and Borning the new one". This is only the topic that rings in my ears at this coaching moment.

Chinrinee

The Practice of Suspension - Day 2

I have a good chance to practice my suspension with one of my talent staff who is very smart, has strong leadership skills and a good team player. The most essential characteristic is her commitment to strive for success. I am very appreciated with her initiative and multiple skills.

I invite her to talk with me today as I find that the more busy she is, the more error her work becomes. Sometime, I am very frastrated with her decision making but hardly share my inner feeling with her. After thinking for 2 days, I make a decision to practice my witness skills, the skills to mirror my own thougt and feeling through a conversation.

Even today is a busy day for both of us, we just come back from client meeting and need time to clear some pending jobs. I find myself walk around and have a bit stress when trying to find a nice invitation sentence. "Are you free to talk with me?" is the best question that I can think at that moment.

She comes to see me with a doubtful face so I start to begin our conversation by asking about her day. At that moment, I notice that I lose my focus to say a sentence that I really want to say, so I just flow with her story. Suddenly, I find that a time is a bit slow down when I invite her to share her thought about the challenging situation we face at this moment. We look at each other after a while and say nothing. Then, the flow of her story begins without interruption for half an hour.

A sentence of "imagine hanging the judgment out in front of you and let it float there" arises in my head. I find myself listen to her story without any judgement and feel a bit light in my physical body. I find myself expressing my inner feeling and thought freely and have no pressure about the outcome when we have different ideas.

I finish our conversation by leaving her a question of how we can learn together to improve our efficiency and increase a vitality in our working process. She promises to come up with her ideas on next Monday. For me, her new idea is not a matter at all, the most important one is the way we can express ourselve and listen to the concerns of each other better. It is really a gift from dialogue exercise that strengthen my inner balance to accept people as the way they are.

Chinrinee

The Practice of Suspension

The screen of 14 people sitting in a circle give me a warm and welcome space as everyday. I feel familiar and comfortable with this setting and enjoy the time with my staff. We start the day with the report of pending job that each of us has on hands. The flow of the reports go on very well sometime we are laughing at some joyful ideas that each of us try to put into the circle. I can feel the happiness and joyful around the corner of the room.

The laughing moment turns into silent when it comes to my queue. I decide to report and share my feeling on the project that one of my staff make decision without informing me. We lose a big amount of income and I would like to draw their attention to help me overcome this challenging. I could feel the breathing and tension spread from each person, it seems like room is empty nobody answer to my question of "How can we help to overcome this challenge"?

As I commit to practice suspension today so I start my day with deep meditation and remind myself to become a witness and welcome every situation that the day bring to me. So, I hold the story that each person shares and try to open my inner ears to listen to the visible and invisible story they express. The familiar sentence of my music teacher come into my ears, "Put your spotlight to see from the above". For me the moment of silence help me a lot to put my spotlight to see the whole story.

Finally, we come up with the solution to control our expenses and share our head, heart and hands to manage this job together, the room turn into laughing again and we end our meeting with the blessing poem. For me, this day is one of the most wonderful day in my life. The song of "When we make a home" from Good Time for love album blow into my ears.......

"(A lovely home.....ooh....)
When we make a home
When our love has grown
When all our apprehensions fade
And we can say "forever"
When we share our dreams
Everything we own
We'll build a life together
When we make a home

* Safe and warm (Safe and warm)
We're sheltered from the strom
(So we'll happy together)
When we make a home together
Love will last forever
Now our love is young
Facing the unknown (Forever more...)
But we'll find joy together
When we make a home

(A lovely home.....ooh....)
When our hearts are one
Though our minds are two
When we can cherish everyday
And fill our lives with laughter
We will dance and sing
In the setting sun
We've made a home together
When our hearts are one (* twice)

Chinrinee

Weekly Meditation

I was so guilty that I could not follow the instruction to have a weekly meditation as other had. While looking back to my weekly schedule, I found myself busy at client meeting for a whole week, paid a lot of attention for my kid performance, run to join a parent meeting at last minutes. It seems like I always breath out and had no time to breath in. I have no energy to drive myself at all.

When talking about breath in and breath out, I find it very important to balance this 2 realms in a rhythmic way. For me, having a good time talking to the one you love and listening to whatever other said without judgment are the breath in activity in my life. It is a fresh air that give me a space to suspend my thought and my reaction. I can say that, the more fresh air I breath in, the more fresh eyes I breath out.

Usually, mediation is the first and the last activity that I do it in my daily life. It is the most and auspicious time for me to skip myself from the busy day, stay with my own self and refresh my mind with a mindfulness and gratitude in life. Even, I am a Buddhism, but my practical way of meditation is Sahaja Yoga meditation which I practice for nearly 20 years. I find it useful to spend half an hour a day when I wake up and before going to bed to reflect my day.

It is a time to connect to the higher self and the collective wisdom in order to become a witness of the situation I faced in daily life. Sometime, it is very hard to open my head and surrender my heart to invite a good answer in life. The only quality that I have during my challenging time is faith. I have strong trust and faith that whatever life bring to me is the lesson that I have to learn. It is only me who can change the world and see it as it emerges.

This is only the experience that I can share with you this week.

Chinrinee

My second coaching call with Jo Ann

After missing to have a coaching call last Wednesday due to my misunderstanding about the time, we rescheduled a new coaching call today. I found that it drew a lot of attention to concentrate in both time different and English conversation that I communicated over the coaching call or in my correspondence with her. Jo Ann, please accept my apologise. I do promise to improve my English communication skills and practice it more and more.

Today, we have a good time sharing about my 4 player model. She starts the session with the type of my conversation process. Her question of "Are you a mover?" brought me to discover my leadership style and the way I could suspend a point of view to blaim my staff. It was amazing time for me to hold the space to listen to staff story without judgement. I was very lucky to read Week 4 articles and gained a reflection experience as a coach from the coaching session with MaryKate. The two situations came at the right time I have difficulty with my staff.

I found myself as a witness to listen to my staff story when I took my self-identification away and have deep listening with tears in my eyes, it was easy to listen to any criticize and comments with new fresh eyes. It seems like my download and mover mode was cleaned up and I could grasp the sense of collective wisdom that flow into the coffee shop corner that we spend two and a half hours there. We came back to office with laugh and relief, even we still know that nothing has been changed at this moment but we had a strong and deep connection that bound our life together.

It seems like a seed of bystander and follower slowly grew up in my heart. Being a mover and opposer for a nearly a half of century, it is now a time for me to learn and start the new journey as a bystander and follower which I ignored for a whole life.

At the end of this reflection, I am curious about the meeting place that Jo Ann and me meet every week, why both of us become a coach an coachee? Is it a time different or a challenging of English communication that brought us here?

Chinrinee

My first coaching call with Jo Ann

I was very exciting to have a first coaching call with Jo Ann as we had some misunderstanding about the time different and this coaching session was the first skype experience call for her.

We started our session with the history of my learning experience, I found that her questions has brought me back to the first day of my Waldorf teacher training 9 years ago. The picture of a working mom who never had time for her kids, over confidence and perfectionist. She loved to manage others but know nothing about her own life. The core content of all courses brought me to a new destiny of how I saw the world. It was the same world that I took for grant for 46 years. The only question that I had after the end of each class was "What was the foot print that I would like to leave to this world?"

I shared with Jo Ann that the new destiny as a life long learner taught me to face with unstable in life. In the past, I felt that became a learner hurted me a lot as it required a strong commitment to change my own self. At this moment, I could say that I was comfortable to learn by mistake and welcome any challenging in life.

It seems to me that our first coaching call dig me down to realize the source that I came from. I felt a warm and welcome space to share my past experiences with Jo Ann. She helped me a lot to reflect the way I learned and the way I saw the world. Thank you Jo Ann!

Chinrinee

Coachging call - Week 2

This week, I can feel the shift and happiness in MaryKate's learning experiences. We talk a lot about 4 player model which she certainly, as an active mover and some time opposite, can shift the way she see the world in to the bystand and follower. She shares her insight about her own life and I am very touch with her view in seeing people as the way they are. For me, the picture of tiny child disappeared, it is a new and mature lady who share her "container" with a coach like me. It is a great pleasure in my life to listen to the story of someone who discovers her own strength and her story encourages me to reflect my own destiny in dialogue process too.

We spend a good and nice time to talk and share our own life after the coaching call. She come up with the way she see the world and I come up with the way I see my thyself and connect to my own "container" after this coaching call with her. Thank you a lot, MaryKate to give me a chance to see my own self.

Chinrinee

My coaching call - week 1

I have a chance to coach MaryKate on the first week. We spend our first coaching call with the question of "What is she learning from the class?" I can feel the strong expression of her feeling, the moment of frastration, the unknown solution and a new way of learning when we flow to the coaching moment. It seems like I see one sweet and tiny child losing her way but having a strong courage to find the way back home. For me, she is very active, energetic and have a lot of vitality.

Giving the fact that she would like to know and have an answer of what she is doing but she can suspend her own self-identification to experience the flow of the unknown in coaching session. At the end of the session, she come up with the release of her own solution to find the new way of learning, even it is still frastrating but she has a clear picture of what she is going to do. As a coach, I can feel the sense of joyfulness and relaxation spread in the air after then. It is the filed of harmony and love in my own life.

Chinrinee